Tuesday, October 17, 2006


I am a sucker for stories that turn my heart inside out and make me cry with joy. This video of Dick and Rick Hoyt, father-and-son marathon team, has as its soundtrack I Can Only Imagine by Mercy Me. In the popular listening of this song, the theology is extremely limiting. But listening to it through the experience of this incredible relationship gives it a whole new meaning. These two are savior to each other; they literally saved the other's life: Rick, from a motionless existence and Dick from possible heart failure. They have given each other eternal life, that is, the fulness of life lived now, redeeming the past, and recreating the future.

Rick's only wish is that one day he could push his dad.

Team Hoyt

Sunday, October 08, 2006


Job 1:1, 2: 1-10; Ps. 26; Hebrews 1: 1-4, 2: 5-12
***** United Church of Christ
October 8, 2006

As I was preparing for this sermon, I searched the internet for a photo or a piece of artwork that would illustrate the theme of integrity. I post my sermons on my weblog, usually with an image that embodies the text of the sermon.

So I went to Google.com and typed in the word integrity, which Webster’s defines as honesty, incorruptibility or the state of being complete or undivided. I found hundreds of images: some were for business WebPages, some were for school and college websites; one was a picture of the residents and staff of Integrity House, a home for those with cognitive disabilities. I even found a billboard sign from New Zealand displaying the value of integrity in the community.

The most striking image for the word integrity was a pair of grimy, filthy, cupped hands: hands that looked like they hadn’t seen water in months. They were the hands of a man: somebody’s father, son, or brother. They looked like they had been used bare to dig for survivors for days on end at some ground-zero site, any ground zero: an earthquake, a plane crash, a bomb site, the mountain of rubble from the World Trade Center. Or hands used to dig through a city dump for a living and a few scraps of food. They could have been the hands of a homeless person, outstretched for a few coins and a little mercy. They could have been the hands of a soldier or an insurgent. They looked like the hands of someone who had suffered much and lost everything, yet could still form their hands into the shape of hope, hands waiting to receive yet able to give and be thankful.

They looked like the hands of Job. Here is a man who has, indeed, lost everything: his children, his livelihood and all of his livestock, and his good health. All he has left is a broken piece of pottery with which to scrape his sores, his wife who is ready to curse God (and who can blame her), and a few friends who come to sit with Job in his suffering and offer their fair-weather advice and religious platitudes. Eventually he rages against these friends and protests his suffering before God who comes to Job not in a vision bathed in light but in the eye of a violent storm, leaving Job’s knees quaking.

Yet at this point in the story, Job persists in his integrity, in his incorruptible faith. Even though he has nothing, still he says nothing against God. Even in his great suffering, Job is still faithful to God. He does not allow his suffering to alter his fundamental belief that God is in charge of the universe. He still has his hands offered as a cup, waiting on the mercy of the Lord. Job asks: How can we give God credit for the good days and yet curse him for the bad? Are we not then fair-weather friends of God ourselves? Yet how can we give thanks in all things, even in our suffering? How can we retain our integrity, how can we remain incorruptible, in the face of pain and anguish?

This is the same question that Israel must have been asking herself during and after the time of exile in Babylon: How can we sing the Lord’s song in a foreign land, in a place where our faith is mocked? It is estimated that the book of Job was written in an early period after Israel had returned from its Babylonian exile, a time of great suffering for the people of Israel. The city of Jerusalem had been destroyed and the temple along with it. The people had not been allowed to worship Yahweh in their captivity but had to worship the Babylonian gods instead. It was difficult to remain faithful and to keep one’s integrity, one’s guileless honesty before God. The story of Job is universal, in that it is the story of all those in relationship to God when in the face of suffering.

When all has been taken away from us, when all that is familiar and usual is gone, when we can’t even recognize ourselves as whom we used to be, how do we worship God? How do we meet God in the midst of our suffering?

All of us deal with suffering in our own way. Some of us retreat from the church, finding it difficult to be with our sisters and brothers in faith. Some of us become trapped in the belief that our suffering is equal to falling short in our faith; we don’t feel as close to God when we are in pain. We think of ourselves as different from others because of our pain and assume that no one can enter into it with us. Often our well-meaning friends can sound like the friends of Job, wanting to fix whatever situation we’re in, offering answers for questions that have none, further pushing us into the solitary confinement of our feelings.

Our culture teaches us to medicate our suffering, to cover it up or distract ourselves from it with any number of ways, by being a consumer and spending our money, indulging in pleasures and leisure activities, feeling good by looking a certain way, to more hurtful and self-destructive practices such as drinking and eating to excess, abusing drugs and keeping our pain to ourselves. There is no place for suffering in our culture, lest it become like a disease that is catching. We try to avoid suffering, but more often than not, it finds us regardless of our careful watching.

Suffering is an inevitable condition of the human experience. Perhaps there are days when it feels like God and the Devil are playing a game of chess with our lives. Suffering comes as a result of living in flesh and loving life and those around us with our whole heart. Jesus knew that.

The grace of suffering is not that we are to find God in it but that God finds us and meets us in our suffering. Through the life and death of Jesus, God comes to us and “shares our common lot, conquering sin and death and reconciling the world”. The author of the book of Hebrews tells us that through Jesus, we learn how to suffer and to keep our integrity as faithful people. By opening ourselves to suffering, not by our ego or through any false sense of piety, but by trusting in God’s grace we open ourselves to God and the possibility of transformation.

The most recent scene of great suffering that has transfixed all of us has been the lines of black horse carriages following hearses in Lancaster County, PA earlier this week. The suffering of the Amish people seems all the more poignant in that they have rejected our American gun culture and yet could not be safeguarded against it. Even more heartrending are the reports of the relatives of the young girls calling for forgiveness for the man who chose to suffer his rage and remorse upon the innocent. With courage that must have come from deep faith in God, the oldest of the girls asked to be shot first, hoping to spare the younger ones. Families of the slain girls have gone so far as to reach out to the family of Charles Roberts, realizing that they too have lost someone they loved. About half of the 75 people that attended Roberts’ funeral were Amish.

All of these actions are a witness to integrity in faith in the face of great suffering. The Amish have been depicted as traditional Christians that emphasize the importance of forgiveness, as if they are the only ones who believe that. I have heard others say that it is too soon for forgiveness. All of us who follow Jesus know of this radical forgiveness. From the cross Jesus forgave those who crucified him, saying that they did not know what they were doing. It is never too soon for forgiveness. What is astounding about the Amish is that they are acting upon the belief in radical forgiveness as a community that is rarely seen in other Christian quarters. Even in the midst of suffering, healing can be found through love, forgiveness, compassion, and the willingness to open our hands to God and to give thanks.

When we allow suffering to harden our hearts and close our fists, we allow ourselves to lose our integrity before God. We are no longer whole-hearted and undivided. Yes, we feel anger, sadness, and despair when we suffer but God is more than big enough to take it and to listen. When we open ourselves to our suffering and to the suffering of others in the presence of God, there is power to be transformed, to be made more of who we are, which is a child of God. We were created to be loving, compassionate, giving reflections of the One who made us. Our sufferings connect us to others in a mysterious way and remind us that all we really have is how we treat each other.

In the Buddhist faith there are what are called the Five Remembrances, five truths to remember about the human condition, and they are universal.

  • I will grow old.
  • This body will know sickness.
  • There is no escape from death.
  • Everything and everyone changes.
  • All I have are my actions.

Suffering does and will happen. It is a fact of life. How we respond to it can mean the world of difference to the integrity of our souls and the lives of those around us. But we cannot do this alone nor are we meant to. Paul said in his first letter to the Corinthians that when one suffers, all suffer together; when one rejoices, all rejoice together. The gift of community is that we are absolved of the burden to be complete. You are complete; you have integrity because this church is in covenant to God and to other faith communities. I encourage you to nurture that covenant. It is through the completeness of this beloved family of faith that you are able to worship God in the midst of suffering. Through your actions with one another, even when you are in pain, you can communicate the deep love that God has for all persons.

How has this faith community remained incorruptible and kept its integrity in the midst of suffering? How have you allowed suffering to open you to God’s new possibilities? When have you, as an individual and as a congregation, kept your hands open to God and when have you closed them? How do you allow your own suffering to connect you others who are suffering and to the suffering of Jesus on the cross? How have you reached out to other faith communities in their suffering and rejoicing? What keeps you coming back, week after week?

The God of Job, the God of Jesus Christ, is the God who invites us to come and die as well as to come and live. God promises to be with us in the face of suffering, to suffer with us, and to welcome us on the other side. God calls us to integrity, to be incorruptible and honest in our faith, to love with whole and undivided hearts, to find our completeness in community, to keep our hands open: willing to receive whatever comes yet able to give and be thankful. Amen.

Tuesday, October 03, 2006


The United Church of Christ has adopted the phrase "God is still speaking," and its attendant comma, to illustrate a core belief, that "[t]here is still more light and truth to break forth from God's holy Word" (Pastor John Robinson, 1620, before the Pilgrims set sail for the New World). I also believe that God speaks through other means, through persons and their creative efforts, whether in the arts, film, or the written word. In this way we encourage one another in our evolution as spiritual beings in a human experience. It is through our evolution that God still speaks, that "Ground of All Being" (Paul Tillich) in which we move and live and have our being (Acts 17: 28).

This is an incomplete list, in no particular order, of those books and films which have shaped my evolution as a spiritual being. In a way they have become like another bible, in that I return to them again and again for nurture, instruction, challenge, comfort and reproof. I invite you to share your own personal list of those sources that inform you how to be loving, compassionate, forgiving, generous, ethical, and open.


The Education of Little Tree, Forrest Carter
Contact, Carl Sagan
A Wrinkle in Time, Madeleine L'Engle
Two-Part Invention, Madeleine L'Engle
Parable of the Sower, Octavia Butler
She's Not There, Jennifer Finney Boylan
Amazing Grace, Jonathan Kozol
Practicing Resurrection, Nora Gallagher
The Year of Magical Thinking, Joan Didion
Man's Search for Meaning, Viktor Frankl
Traveling Mercies, Anne Lamott
If Grace is True, Philip Gulley & James Mulholland
Beyond Belief, Elaine Pagels
The Gnostic Gospels, Elaine Pagels
Mutant Message Down Under, Marlo Morgan
A New Christianity for a New World, John Shelby Spong
Dance of the Dissident Daughter, Sue Monk Kidd
The Secret Life of Bees, Sue Monk Kidd
The Girl Who Loved Tom Gordon, Stephen King
The Road Less Traveled, M. Scott Peck
The Luminous Web, Barbara Brown Taylor
A Woman's Worth, Marianne Williamson
Living Buddha, Living Christ, Thich Nhat Hanh
Going Home, Thich Nhat Hanh

Ishmael, Daniel Quinn

Poetry collections

Given, Wendell Berry
God Went to Beauty School, Cynthia Rylant
Mules of Love, Ellen Bass
For Earthly Survival, Ellen Bass
Collected Lyrics of Edna St. Vincent Millay
Collected Poetry of Sylvia Plath
Collected Poetry of Robert Frost


The Shawshank Redemption
Babette's Feast
Jesus of Montreal
Star Trek II, IV, VI
Star Trek: Generations, First Contact, Insurrection
The Song of Bernadette
After Life (Japanese)
Not One Less (Chinese)
Brief Encounter
The Matrix trilogy
Lord of the Rings trilogy
Chariots of Fire
The Karate Kid
L.A. Story
G.I. Jane
Groundhog Day
The Joy Luck Club
Grand Canyon
A River Runs Through It
Field of Dreams
Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon
The Right Stuff

Plus, there's a new TV series
"Heroes" on NBC that's really got me fired up. This show, in addition to the lists above, help me know in more tangible ways that I am not alone, that there are others who are thinking and wondering and questioning many of the same things, what scientists call synchronicity. The power and the gift of revelation (the mystery revealed), in the context of community, is to know that we are not alone in this vast universe. This is our greatest fear, which I believe fuels most of the violence in our world. It is my hope that one day we will evolve beyond this fear, realizing the holy and the good within each one of us.